又是一個無理頭的小段

嘿嘿嘿﹐想換一下心情(也順便整一整那些對中文一竅不通或則中文不是很好的朋友)﹐所以今天就改用中文。

當然﹐生為新加坡人的我﹐日常生活裡用的是簡體字。畢竟﹐這就是學校裡教的﹔周遭的(本地的)新聞雜誌和電視節目也都是以簡體字呈現。我是因為自高中就有閱讀漫畫*的習慣﹐才會對繁體字比較熟悉。不過﹐也沒熟悉到哪兒去﹐頂多是唸的出一些﹐和會象這樣的打一些罷了。

會在這裡使用繁體字是因為好玩﹐也因為繁體字美多了。

我覺得繁體字筆劃多﹐會比較難記得起來﹐更別說是寫了。>_<

昨天才剛寫說好喜歡好英語﹐今天則用中文來寫blog﹐是否有點怪呢?



*我所閱讀的漫畫都是被送到台灣翻譯和出版的日本漫畫。


P/S Kupfel, think you're 133t, eh? Ha, h4x this!

Have I Ever Mentioned...

I'm a sucker for good English? Well, actually that should be apparent. >_>

Words have a way of enthralling me at times; I can even lose myself in well-written prose. It's amazing what some people can do with words, the stories that they weave, the pictures that they can paint, and the emotions that they can stir.

Even simple words arranged in the right order, and said at the right times; those can affect me too¹.



¹ Ken, if you see this, yeah, I know you know that all too well.

I Swear...

I know the weirdest people, or somehow, I get to know the weirdest people.

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Yes, you, I mean you! *pokes you hard in the chest several times with a finger*

But don't be too offended. After all, this is coming from someone who has gotten called weird by close friends. -_-;;;

I've come to see it as a compliment. Think weird = unusual = not ordinary = not the same = not boring = good. Uh, something like that.

Anyway, here's a stolen pic I rather liked:

You're kidding, right?

I've asked that at least 4 times in the past two weeks or so. I've said it in doubt; said it in surprise; said it in confusion, and said it in denial.

The various answers I've gotten in response to that... Some of the answers helped clear things up. Some raised even more questions. And still some, what kind of answers are those?! Or maybe even made me go, "Noooo, that's not an answer I wanna hear!" ^^;;;

Perhaps it'd be better to just go, "Uh huh" to everything that makes me want to ask that, but it won't be very helpful at all. Duh.

What was all that about? Didn't make sense? Never mind, here's a cute picture while you forget what you just read.


Courtesy of Kupfel, who found this somewhere

My Ideal Wake

Warning: If you are easily offended or religious in some way, I would suggest not reading this post. Still here? Well, you've been warned this is potentially (who am I kidding, it is) offensive.

I had this idea like months ago but I just never did put it down on paper, or on the net, for that matter. It's a crazy idea, but it made me laugh so hard. In fact, I had trouble relating the entire tableau to friends without stopping to laugh uncontrollably.

To begin with, I don't believe in being buried in a coffin or being cremated after death. My death, to be specific. (It certainly isn't up to me to comment on other people's practices.) It's a waste of money to pay for that shiny wooden box which will still be reduced to mere ashes, or eventually decompose underground anyway. What's the point¹?

When I die, I would prefer that no one claim the body. Leave it to the government to take care of it. And yes, I'm perfectly serious. Like I said to my mom before, death means the soul has left the body, and that body is simply a mere shell left behind, so why spend waste money on it?

But if any of my dear friends should still want a proper wake/burial/cremation for me (to sponsor it I mean ^_^, as I predict myself to end this life with a shitload of debts, so there certainly won't be any money/assets left behind, let alone a will), then please...

Have me in a nice black Prada dress (with matching heels too?), preferably with a Gothic edge to it, and if it has lace on it, even better! Makeup should consist of blood red lipstick with black eyeshadow and eyeliner, and please layer on the powder. And keep my eyes open, if it's possible at all.

There shouldn't be that grave Western silence or any Chinese religious chants/songs. Please play something suitable for me like Marilyn Manson's "Rock Is Dead", Nine Inch Nails' "Heresy", or something similar.

Ludicrous? It gets wors... uh, better.

I would like a motion sensor that activates an action whenever anyone comes near my body within 2 metres. The action would be that I would rise up from my coffin quite suddenly and end up in a standing position (propped up by some ingenious, mechanical way). For added effects, throw in some dry ice as well.

And oh, have the embalmer arrange my expression into one of benignancy (or one resembling it since I might have never had that expression much when alive so it might be difficult to form such an expression on my face after death).

Have one of my hands extended out seemingly in welcome, and the other hand in a fist with the third finger extended out. A rosary (or that wooden Gucci cross necklace) wrapped around the hand and left to dangle on the welcoming hand would be a nice touch.

Friends or (*gasp*) relatives who come to my wake, how would they feel about such a spectacle?

Oh my god, what the fuck!?

What blasphemy! She'd burn in hell for this!

Maybe something like that?

A friend was saying that if it were truly done this way, my wake would have people from all over Singapore coming to take a look. Hey, that would mean I could be on the news! My five minutes of fame.

Hell, perhaps admittance tickets could be sold and some of the cost of the wake could be earned back.

So friends, you know what to do when that day comes. ^_^



¹ Still on a serious note, I do acknowledge that wakes and burials are part of the mourning process for the living. So if there's any reason for mine, it would be this, and this only.

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Nostalgia

I received an e-mail reminding me that I have yet to activate an account that I opened at Vnl Online.

I had forgotten about this lil gem of a find. My last visit was 29 March 2005, prolly the day I "discovered" this site.

Vnl Online defines themselves: Vnl Online is a community based J-Pop music videos website. We have over 100 hours of streaming audio/video and 10000+ photos that is constantly growing as a result of the site's community driven nature. Users can upload photos and videos, create photo albums, publish their own sites/albums so others can see, rate other users' sites, use the forums, and chat with other users through instant messaging or communicate via offline messages.

Looking through someone's gallery of pictures, one caught my eye and it sent me googling for the source (or at least where the picture is from), and well... -_-;;

Let's just say I spent an hour or two getting back in touch with my (yaoi) fangirl roots.

Anyway, back at Vnl Online, I found a video clip of "God Save the Queen" performed by X Japan, Luna Sea and ZI-KILL. Oh my god, how long ago was that! 7, 8 years ago?

There was also an audio clip of Inoran (rhythm guitarist of Luna Sea) singing "Gravity", one of Luna Sea's songs. O.o Amazing.

And well, I'd be off now to continue my walk down Memory Lane.

...

I hate being fucking emo.

I cried three times in my months of obsession with Rose. That was three times over things that were said/happened in the game.

The first was over Eusoff the asshole.

The second was over Belize.

At some point in the game, he started talking less to me. He was all chummy with his new clan mates. We kind of drifted apart. In detached retrospect, I suppose we weren't ever that close?

But I don't know. It still saddened me.

I have his e-mail address, and there is still a tinge of sadness when I see it and know that there may never be a reason for me to e-mail this person again.

The third was over Kupfel. Well, not really over him.

It was over the fact that I upset him.

I was confused over something, and I made a very bad joke to try to answer my doubts. There was a bit of awkwardness after that, and belatedly, I realised that joke might have devalued his feelings, and I didn't mean that at all.

He continued to play on, but he didn't say anything for the longest time, which wasn't like him.

We have this thing where we say "yaaaaay" whenever one of us lvled up.

Well, I lvled and...

Kup: gratz

Me: gratz? that's weird. u don't ever say that to me

He typed out an emoticon (:S I think) and nothing else was said.

Not long after, he abruptly went off to a safe spot from where we were fighting, and said, "I'm gonna get some coffee".

Everything felt wrong.

It threw me into a mini bout of self-loathe.

Thoughts ran through my head:

Why do I always fuck up?

Why do I always say the wrong things?

Why do I always end up hurting people?

I'm bad for my friends.

I'm bad for Kupfel.

I slow down his lvling in-game, and I hurt him.

I badly wanted to log out of the game and just... stop playing as that character. Perhaps make a new one, and continue playing without ever saying anything to Kupfel again.

But it would be rude and prolly worse if I did that, so I stayed. And when Kupfel came back, we sort of talked it over. And things are fine now.

But I'm never, ever gonna forget my trangression.

There was once when he mentioned that he will seldom be angered by anything his friends say; he'd just be sad. It reminded me of this incident.

I can't believe it myself that I would cry over something that happened in a game. I certainly don't think much of myself too for reacting the way I did.

But, the thing is, I don't ever forget that all these characters in-game, behind them, behind the computers, there are real people who are playing them.

When I talk to anyone in-game, I'm always interacting with someone who's real, who has feelings too. I'm almost always conscious of that.

I guess I really put my heart into the game, and into various people I talk to and know in-game.

*sigh*

Like I said, I hate being fucking emo.